Only about 3 weeks of 24/7 left...I feel like I've kinda spiritually checked out recently. I haven't had the same desire to read the Bible lately, I haven't thought about praying all the time, it's like I've almost forgotten God in my everyday life and I hate that. What happened to walking in the spirit and praying without ceasing and a burning desire to read the Word everyday?
I feel like now that the year is almost over I should be some super Christian leader person and have it all together but I'm not and I don't.
The way I pictured my life at 19 when I was a kid is very different than what it is now. Wow 19? That sounds so old and so young at the same time. How is that possible?
I've been thinking about this summer a lot since turning in my cadre application. I don't want to go home and get back into the everyday routine of living complacently and just getting through each day. When I go home I want all the people that knew me before I went through 24/7 to see a complete and total change. I want to be an example to all the teenagers in my church, not just the highschoolers but the college students too. I want to live differently than I did last summer.
In order to do that I need to finish these last 3 weeks strong. No checking out, no taking anything for granted, no just getting by. Make the most of every flipping opportunity!!
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wow Moments
There are moments in life that I like to call "wow" moments that happen sometimes when you just get so overwhelmed that your brain goes on total overload and you can't even put into words or thoughts what is going through your mind and you have to sit back and just say "wow" and thats all you can say.
That is what is currently going on inside my head. God has shown me so much in the last month my brain is having a hard time processing it all. It's the weirdest feeling in the world. I wish all the drug and alcohol adicts in the world could feel it because it's better than any high they could ever get from their addictions. It's a Jesus high. There are no words to describe it. It's happened to me several times since we left for Africa. I wish I could explain it but there really are no words. God is so much bigger and holier and wonderful and awesomer, even though thats not a word, than I could ever imagine or put into words. And the coolest thing is that I get to be a part of what He is doing in the world. How cool is that?!
I'm like so excited about life right now it's kind of ridiculous and I really wish I could go sit at toad suck and play guitar but I guess I'll have to settle for my living room.
That is what is currently going on inside my head. God has shown me so much in the last month my brain is having a hard time processing it all. It's the weirdest feeling in the world. I wish all the drug and alcohol adicts in the world could feel it because it's better than any high they could ever get from their addictions. It's a Jesus high. There are no words to describe it. It's happened to me several times since we left for Africa. I wish I could explain it but there really are no words. God is so much bigger and holier and wonderful and awesomer, even though thats not a word, than I could ever imagine or put into words. And the coolest thing is that I get to be a part of what He is doing in the world. How cool is that?!
I'm like so excited about life right now it's kind of ridiculous and I really wish I could go sit at toad suck and play guitar but I guess I'll have to settle for my living room.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Life is good
So a lot has happened since I've posted last...
Completed the dreaded IronMan. It was definitely the longest most hellish day of my life but its over. I did it. I still am unable to believe that I did it. And I look around me at all the other people that did it and I am so incredibly proud of all of us. Never in our lives would we have thought we would be able to do something like that. I would not have been able to do it without my family though. Not just my blood family but my 24/7 and new life family. My homesponsor ran probably 9 or 10 miles with me and walked 3 or so with me. Jen, Laurie's homesponsor ran/walked 3 miles with me, so did Skoog. Then at the end Monica and I finished the last 3 miles and then Melissa came back finished the last little bit with us. I am so blessed.
Then this last weekend we had survival training which was pretty cool. I learned a lot.
For some reason I'm being very ADD at the moment and trying to do like 6 things at once and getting distracted and am not accomplishing any of them. I did however just unclog my toilet which was very exciting. I wish I could say I did it by myself but I was coached by my dad on the phone the whole time. (what would I would do without that man I don't know)
I'm so glad to be here but sometimes I really wish I wasn't missing out on stuff back home. My older brother is moving out on his own, (yes he is 23 and just now moving out on his own for the first time) one of my younger brothers is in highschool now and will be learning to drive this summer. My best friend from back home is so musically and creatively gifted its not even funny and she will be moving on and doing something crazy awesome after she finishes school of worship. My church is growing and building a new building. My youth group is growing. All my friends from home are off in the real world. I know I'm supposed to be here, I just wish I could be there to see all the changes that are happening at home too. Change is a strange thing.
It comes when you least expect it and can completely turn your world upside down and you won't know what happened. If you don't pay attention you might miss it.
It definitely makes you want to savor every minute you have with the people you love and live every moment to the fullest.
There are 10 weeks left until graduation...That blows my mind to think about. It feels like I just got here but at the same time it feels like I've been here for years. I've grown and learned so much in the last 7 months its unbelievable.
Lord help me to make the most of these last 10 weeks and live every single second to the absolute fullest not taking anything for granted.
Completed the dreaded IronMan. It was definitely the longest most hellish day of my life but its over. I did it. I still am unable to believe that I did it. And I look around me at all the other people that did it and I am so incredibly proud of all of us. Never in our lives would we have thought we would be able to do something like that. I would not have been able to do it without my family though. Not just my blood family but my 24/7 and new life family. My homesponsor ran probably 9 or 10 miles with me and walked 3 or so with me. Jen, Laurie's homesponsor ran/walked 3 miles with me, so did Skoog. Then at the end Monica and I finished the last 3 miles and then Melissa came back finished the last little bit with us. I am so blessed.
Then this last weekend we had survival training which was pretty cool. I learned a lot.
For some reason I'm being very ADD at the moment and trying to do like 6 things at once and getting distracted and am not accomplishing any of them. I did however just unclog my toilet which was very exciting. I wish I could say I did it by myself but I was coached by my dad on the phone the whole time. (what would I would do without that man I don't know)
I'm so glad to be here but sometimes I really wish I wasn't missing out on stuff back home. My older brother is moving out on his own, (yes he is 23 and just now moving out on his own for the first time) one of my younger brothers is in highschool now and will be learning to drive this summer. My best friend from back home is so musically and creatively gifted its not even funny and she will be moving on and doing something crazy awesome after she finishes school of worship. My church is growing and building a new building. My youth group is growing. All my friends from home are off in the real world. I know I'm supposed to be here, I just wish I could be there to see all the changes that are happening at home too. Change is a strange thing.
It comes when you least expect it and can completely turn your world upside down and you won't know what happened. If you don't pay attention you might miss it.
It definitely makes you want to savor every minute you have with the people you love and live every moment to the fullest.
There are 10 weeks left until graduation...That blows my mind to think about. It feels like I just got here but at the same time it feels like I've been here for years. I've grown and learned so much in the last 7 months its unbelievable.
Lord help me to make the most of these last 10 weeks and live every single second to the absolute fullest not taking anything for granted.
Monday, February 23, 2009
So much for sleeping in...
My first chance to sleep in, in over a week and I wake up at 5 30 and kinda drift in and out of sleep till 7 30 when I was unable to sleep at all. Gotta love it when that happens...So I got some laundry done, finally got to look through most of the pictures from mexico, and did some other stuff on the computer. But now it is 10 and I need to run 12 miles today, blah.
I wish there was some way I could make myself enjoy running. Or at least not loath it. There really are not many things I would not rather do than run. I would rather hike pinnacle in the freezing rain without a jacket 12 times than run 12 miles. Oh the Ironman is going to be lots of fun...12 days...holy crap. But that also means 13 days until I can drink coffee! I'll just focus on that for all 140 miles. After this I can drink coffee! After this I can drink coffee! I know I'm pathetic its ok I've accepted it. I'm just tired of being tired all the time. I look dead, I feel dead, it's no bueno.
Well I've been putting it off long enough, I need to suck it up and go run 12 miles.
I wish there was some way I could make myself enjoy running. Or at least not loath it. There really are not many things I would not rather do than run. I would rather hike pinnacle in the freezing rain without a jacket 12 times than run 12 miles. Oh the Ironman is going to be lots of fun...12 days...holy crap. But that also means 13 days until I can drink coffee! I'll just focus on that for all 140 miles. After this I can drink coffee! After this I can drink coffee! I know I'm pathetic its ok I've accepted it. I'm just tired of being tired all the time. I look dead, I feel dead, it's no bueno.
Well I've been putting it off long enough, I need to suck it up and go run 12 miles.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Beautiful Day
For some reason this fast is harder than any other fast. Harder than the "c" word fast, harder than fasting all food even. I never realized how much caffeine I put in me every day until now. Plus working blends doesn't help. It's ok though, I'll get through this, Jesus can be my coffee!
It's so nice outside. It's days like today that make me want to climb a mountain then sit at the top overlooking everything and play guitar. I will do that someday...
But for now I will have to settle for running Salem trail with my ipod.
It's so nice outside. It's days like today that make me want to climb a mountain then sit at the top overlooking everything and play guitar. I will do that someday...
But for now I will have to settle for running Salem trail with my ipod.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Not able to sleep
There is so much I want to say I don't even know where to start...There's not even enough room or time to write everything so I will try to narrow it down to the most important...
God has shown me so much in the last few months its insane. These last three weeks in Mexico especially. There are so many things in life that you know in your head but you don't really know them in your heart. For instance: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I can be a slut *in a drama people, don't get any ideas*, eat more food than should be humanly possible to consume in one day, pray for people that don't even speak my language, tell my testimony in front of lots and lots of people, be confident in who God made me to be, and completely trust God with absolutely everything. You know what else? Just try to wrap your mind around this. The God that created the universe, the God that spoke mountains into existence, the God that is so big he is everywhere at the same time loves me, and chose me to be in this program and to go to Mexico and tell people about Him. Out of all the people in the world, I got to do that. Dude.
Have you just sat there and tried to wrap your mind around how much God loves you lately? I think that too often we forget exactly what that love entails. Too often we just know it in our head.
We wrote down goals today and one of mine is to never forget and just know in my head that God loves me, but to always know it in my heart. To never get used to the fact that the God that created this entire world and everyone in it loves me. Me, ZuZu Ford. Every time I think about that, like really think about it, I have this major wow moment and I want to go tell everyone so that they can realize the same thing.
So these are just a few things and when you read most of them you're like, ya duh I've known that my whole life but there is a big difference between knowing something and knowing something. That is something I'm learning, to never let yourself get used to the things of God to where they don't amaze you anymore and they just seem normal.
There is so much more I want to say but now I need to sleep. I will write more later.
Hopefully soon I'll have pictures I can put up too.
Later
Zu
God has shown me so much in the last few months its insane. These last three weeks in Mexico especially. There are so many things in life that you know in your head but you don't really know them in your heart. For instance: I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I can be a slut *in a drama people, don't get any ideas*, eat more food than should be humanly possible to consume in one day, pray for people that don't even speak my language, tell my testimony in front of lots and lots of people, be confident in who God made me to be, and completely trust God with absolutely everything. You know what else? Just try to wrap your mind around this. The God that created the universe, the God that spoke mountains into existence, the God that is so big he is everywhere at the same time loves me, and chose me to be in this program and to go to Mexico and tell people about Him. Out of all the people in the world, I got to do that. Dude.
Have you just sat there and tried to wrap your mind around how much God loves you lately? I think that too often we forget exactly what that love entails. Too often we just know it in our head.
We wrote down goals today and one of mine is to never forget and just know in my head that God loves me, but to always know it in my heart. To never get used to the fact that the God that created this entire world and everyone in it loves me. Me, ZuZu Ford. Every time I think about that, like really think about it, I have this major wow moment and I want to go tell everyone so that they can realize the same thing.
So these are just a few things and when you read most of them you're like, ya duh I've known that my whole life but there is a big difference between knowing something and knowing something. That is something I'm learning, to never let yourself get used to the things of God to where they don't amaze you anymore and they just seem normal.
There is so much more I want to say but now I need to sleep. I will write more later.
Hopefully soon I'll have pictures I can put up too.
Later
Zu
Monday, January 12, 2009
Off to Mexico I go!
Hey guys just wanted to post really quick before I leave. I have to be at the church in like half an hour and I think I am done packing....I took my last shower this morning and straightened my hair. I should take before and after pictures lol
Anyway I better go I've got some things to clean before I leave but feel free to leave me lots of messages on my phone to come home to!
God is going to do some freakin awesome things and I get to be a part of it. How cool is that? Dude I'm excited!
Later yo! I'll be back on the 31st!
Anyway I better go I've got some things to clean before I leave but feel free to leave me lots of messages on my phone to come home to!
God is going to do some freakin awesome things and I get to be a part of it. How cool is that? Dude I'm excited!
Later yo! I'll be back on the 31st!
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