Anybody home?

God I really need your help right now.
I'm so sick of this.
I'm sick of not knowing for sure.
Every time I think I know for sure something changes and suddenly I don't know.
I need a little certainty.
It would be really cool if you could like post a big neon sign outside my window with bright flashing lights telling me what I'm supposed to do about this...
Heck I'd be fine with a talking donkey right about now, I just need to know.
I feel like every decision I make is the wrong one.
I don't want to screw this up...
Please Jesus I need you.

Good morning

Hello and good morning blogger people

I filled out my application to go to worship school part time. Well my mom filled it out and I told her what to write because I have the handwriting equivalent to an 8 year old boy. I really should work on that...
I'm ready to just go to worship school now. All of the suspense of not knowing what is going to happen or what its really going to be like is killing me. Plus I'm getting extremely sick of my family...I know thats really bad to say but its true...I'm just ready to leave...

Well I have an interview at Mardel today so I should probably go get ready...later peeps

Never get caught in elastic...too much wiggle room is dangerous...

Wow this week has been crazy...It was the best of times, it was the worst of times. It was so awesome getting to see all 17 of me and Brittany's little 3-5 year olds up there on stage worshipping God. Granted there were many times throughout the week where I wanted to kill one if not all of them but overall it was a great week. It was an honor to get to teach those little guys with Brittany. I had more fun this year working with them and not getting paid than working in the nursery watching babies last year and getting paid, and that surprised me. I am going to miss them and all the ladies that worked so hard this week when I leave for colorado. That is definitely what I will miss most, my church and all the people in it. What's kinda sad is that I will miss that more than my family.

Well that is all I have time for today, stay tuned for more soon to come

For some reason I am not one little bit tired

So youth this week was pretty good, apart from the unnecessary drama caused by dumb youngins in the youth group that sometimes I just want to slap and say grow up. Seriously I was not a very mature kid but I was more mature than them! I guess its just hard for some kids to think of other people before them selves.

Anyway enough ranting about that. Worship arts camp is going well. Especially considering Brit and I have 17 little 3-5 yr olds in a little bitty room. I'm excited about friday night though. And very excited about getting t shirts:-D

So at youth tonight during the closing part where everyone is supposed to close their eyes and pray and stuff I was actually able to tune everything out and just stand there and listen to God. That hasn't happened in so long it was so cool. I seriously just stood there and didn't hear anything in the room but God's voice...and Garrett shouting a little here and there. But it was good to get back to that. I finally feel really good and sure about going to worship school. Which means I should probably get working on my application lol

Well I think that is all for now as I am out of things to say. So I bid all thee blogger people adue...? a due? adoo? ya I don't know how to spell that but I hope you catch my drift.

Rise and Shine

So babysitting last night went really well. The kids were awake for about an hour and a half and then went to bed *poor things* so from 7 30 to 11 30 when their parents got home I myspaced and blogged and read a book and watched friends and hannah montana and got paid 60 bucks. And these people wanna use me once a week and have more rich friends that want me too. God is good. I might make it through this summer without blowing all my graduation money afterall.

I totally wish I lived in a house where you could go out and sit on the roof. I've always wanted to do that. I've tried in my house but the roof is too steep and I almost fell off *ya not a good thing* But someday before I die I'm going to live in a house where you can climb out on the roof and play guitar and pray and that be my place that no one else could go to.

So for now I will just have to live with my bean bag guitar chair.

Peace

I should have brought a guitar...

So I'm babysitting and these poor kids went to bed at 7 30...I got here at 6, the parents won't be back for at least another 2 hours...I'm so bored I'm tempted to wake the kids up and make them play with me. At least I managed to find food. I was getting worried there for a little while but I made myself a scrumptious peanut butter and jelly sand which.

Did you know that sand which is two words not one?? I always thought it was one word but the spell check on here said its two words not one. I feel like I've been living a lie my whole life I never knew it wasnt one word....

I was just overcome with the desire to play my guitar and being the smart person that I am didn't think to bring one. Good job zuzu...

Well I am getting tired of myspace and defensive driving so I think I will go watch hannah montana and try to stay awake because I'm just cool like that.

Hunger...It's consuming me...

I feel like I'm withering away into nothingness. I'm so hungry my stomach is eating itself!! Not really but I felt like being dramatic. So this whole diet thing is getting old, I miss food. But I did weigh today and I've lost 3 pounds *snaps for zuzu* Oh and Brittany lost 5 pounds! *snaps for brittany* My one light in this darkness that is dieting is these amazing weight watchers ice cream bars that are simply divine. Like I would eat these even if I wasn't on a diet they are so good and they are only....1 point!! praise Jesus there is hope! I just might make it through this alive!

I have decided that I am going to come up with a line of food that is cheap, healthy, and tastes good and takes away the hunger. Because seriously pretty much the way it is is if it tastes good and is cheap and filling then its gonna make you fat...What is wrong with this world?!?! I need to have a talk with whoever is in charge of that cuz he needs to make some changes.

Ok so I'm taking defensive driving online and the little chapter quiz questions crack me up

Determine a safe speed to travel based on __________.
the volume level of your music
road conditions, traffic density, how far you can see ahead
how late you are for an appointment
the fastest speed your vehicle can go


Hmm I can't decide between the volume level of my music and the fastest my car can go...Seriously I wanna know who gets that question wrong. Who is really that dumb??


Well I am going to sleep...It's my new theory during this diet thing where if you just go to sleep the hunger will go away. So I'm going to go test my theory. Good night all.