First of all, I discovered that one of the main reasons I have a bad day or just plain am in a really bad mood is when I am in the flesh; when my focus is all on me.
As soon as I get the focus off of myself it's like a whole new world!
A couple of months ago a good friend of mine asked me to be her intercessor this year.
At this point in time I was experiencing a very dry season with God and couldn't figure out why I wasn't passionate about reading the Bible or spending time with God. (something I usually desire everyday) So I started to pray for her everyday. That was the beginning of my revelation.
I'm not the best at praying for people. I've always wished I could be one of those great prayer warriors that can pray for hours and hours and it's their prayers that kept someone alive or something like that. But I've never been able to do it consistently. I will get bored 5 min into prayer or run out of things to say or fall asleep. But I was determined to keep my promise to pray for her every day.
I knew it was going to take trying something I hadn't done before if it was really going to happen.
So I started reading scripture out loud over her, changing the tense or a few words here and there to make it apply to her. And I would just go through a book of the Bible picking out verses and praying them (out loud) over her.
As I prayed scripture over her every morning, I began to get more and more passionate about spending time with God. I started to be in a much better mood most days. And I started to become more and more passionate about intercession and learning all I can about what exactly it means.
So I started reading a book called Intercessory Prayer and it has been rocking my world.
I really wish I could explain the change that has taken place in me and in my relationship with God. He feels more real to me now than He ever has before. And the funny thing is, I have hardly prayed for myself at all in the last 2 months. The more I pray for other people, the closer I feel to God. It doesn't make any sense to my brain at all but it's true.
My God time used to be all about me reading the Bible for me and praying for me and what I can get from God and what God can reveal to me.
And theres nothing wrong with having times of that. I think that there are definitely seasons where we need a touch from God and we have to cry out to Him for ourselves before we can fight for anyone else.
But for me, it was time to go deeper, and having God time every morning for myself wasn't cutting it.
I think that if we will just get the focus off of ourselves and fight for the people around us, God will take care of us.
This is the first of many revelations I will try to share...
