Brittanyless Texas

Not really, I am wearing underwear I promise. It's really cute underwear too:-)


So I've decided that Prosper TX without Brittany is pretty boring and stupid and I don't understand how anyone (myself included) ever lived here before she came.





So this is all that has happened since my last post in Brittany-less Texas.





I've been running, trying to get in shape for my Christian boot camp I'm about to go to for 10 months. I used to be in a lot better shape what happened?? I have a feeling that whatever it was must have happened somewhere between all the taco bell and the cheetos that I ate all summer, oh and lets not forget all the Panda Express. So I'm pretty sore. I forgot how much I don't enjoy this feeling.





My mother and I went shopping for some stuff that I need before I leave. We went to guitar center to get a hard case for Iris, and just my luck they don't have the one that fits it. (I would buy the guitar that needs the special order case.) So we were there for about an hour and a half while every worker guy in the store was determined to find a case in the store that fit my guitar. (I must have looked good that day or something, hmm) Anyway the guy that was helping us found the one I need online and gave us the info we needed to go home and order it. But he also felt it necessary to write his cell phone number and myspace down too just in case I need anything from guitar center while I'm in uncivilized Arkansas. (Of course my mother was thrilled at that)





We also went to bath and body works and I got some smell good sprays and lotions. Or so I thought....


I get home and pour some lotion in my hand to use and realized...that was not lotion. Because you see I may have graduated but being a homeschooler I never really learned how to read and I got "body wash" confused with "lotion" and easy mistake I know. But still, seriously?


So today I have to go back to bath and body works and explain my predicament to the bath and body works lady and see if she will trade me the body washes for the lotions.





Then I babysat the Chesney kiddos last night. They were all really good thank God. Dylan was his funny crazy self instead of his bratty annoying self so I was glad for that. We all played outside till it was too dark to see and then what do you know it was time for bed. Then Brett and Kelly got home not long after that and they brought me a present!:-D
The funny thing is Dylan and Maddie were just singing that song right before they went to bed.

So yes that was cool. I love getting presents.

Then this morning Brit and I went and ate breakfast at Mcdonald's together...kind of. Then we played a driving game that got Brittany lost and I had to come home and look up where she was on google maps to make sure she was going in the right direction and ya, it's been an eventful day so far that is for sure.

Well today I have to get more guitar picks because they all seem to have run away, and maybe some strings because I seem to be a string killer these days and a string killer can never have too many strings.

I've been on a ringtone making kick this week for some odd reason. I made almost every song I like a ringtone. I have like 50 million on my phone. Now if only I had 50 million people to call me so I could hear them all that would be cool.

Ok well I must start my day now so I will bid thee a fare well.
In the words of Jil:
It's been real
It's been fun
It's been real fun.

The start of something new

Well this week has been full of lots of new things...
It started off with Brittany and I trying to get rid of my roots and make my hair all blonde...but we ran out of bleach 3/4th's of the way through so for a day and a half I had a big brown spot on the top of my head. (It made for two hat days that was for sure) And then I bought more bleach and had my mother finish up...in a sense, it worked....I am very blonde, no...I am very white...except of course for the little streaks of orange and the little brown spot that didn't quite make it...there are old ladies that try very hard not to have the color hair that I have right now...

I am contemplating just shaving it all off and starting over...

Anyway moving on

I decided I needed a new color...got a problem with it? too bad

So thursday I tagged along with Brittany and her mom to get Brit all moved in and make sure her host family is nice and everything.
Got started on my 24/7 work out by carrying all her stuff up and down and up and down the stairs at her new house.
I helped her get her room all situated and organized.
Then we took her to Wal-Mart one last time and got her a bunch of stuff then brought her back and said our goodbyes.
It was sad but I don't think it has really hit me yet. I know it will be harder being here at home for almost a week alone but I'll live.
The ride back home with her parents was good. They crack me up how much they fight its hilarious and its about the stupidest things its great.
I don't think I've ever envied anyone so much for something before as I do what Brittany has with her parents. I never noticed the little things before that just come as a shock to me.
All their kids can be so open with them, we're in the car and Brittany tells her mom all about whats going on with Adam as if she were talking to me or another one of her girl friends.
On the way home Bethany txts her mom all about a guy she has a crush on and everything that's going on with that and asking her what she should do.
The complete and total honesty is so foreign to me. It's like I never really knew what I was missing. And just listening to her parents talk in the car talk about their kids, how much they love them and respect them and understand them and trust them to make their own decisions just blows me away.
Heck they even threw me a birthday party! And I'm not even their daughter!
I never completely knew what I was missing.
That family is everything I wish I had but never knew I wanted...

There's a part of me that's scared that I'll be the same kind of parent as mine...
That's how I was raised, that's what I saw, what if I end up doing the same thing?
I know I'll learn from their mistakes and everything but that fear is still there in the back of my mind...
What if I try so hard to not be like my parents that I end up being worse?
What if my kids end up resenting, hating, and lying to me their whole lives?
I know I have a long time before I have to worry about any of that..I guess this week has just kinda pushed all those thoughts to the front of my mind...I guess there's nothing I can do about it now. No point in worrying about it right?

On a different note I heard from my host home person. She's a single lady, never been married, no kids. She sounds like she's in her late 20's which surprised me. We talked on the phone for a little while and she sounds really nice so that is good. One major worry to mark off the list. I should probably start packing.

My list of things I need to do this week:
Take back my guitar case and get one that fits.
Buy more guitar picks
Run
Go through all my crap and pack the stuff I need and put away all the stuff I don't.
Make as much money as I can babysitting when I have a spare hour or two.
Run Run
Figure out something to do to my hair that will make it not so hideous
Wash all of my clothes.
Finish reading Breaking Dawn.
Run Run Run.