Just One of Those Days....

Hi blogger people...
Let me just warn you in advance that this next post will not be a happy one as I am not in the best of moods...so if you are in a good mood and don't want to spoil it I recommend you stop reading now...

So you know how every now and then you just have one of those days where all the little things that have bothered you over the last, however long its been since you've had a breakdown, finally pile up and it only takes one more little thing to go wrong and you totally lose it? Ya so today was that day for me...

I am trying so hard not to be mad and have a bad attitude about my jaw and the fact that I will have to deal with these killer head aches and excruciating jaw pain and popping the rest of my life...But it's so freaking frustrating when you're hungry (and you eat as much and as often as I do) and you can't think of anything to eat that won't hurt your jaw because just opening your jaw and closing it hurts. And it's really depressing to know that even if I went through surgery to fix it, it wouldn't be totally fixed and would be even more painful than what I'm going through now...And it's even more frustrating to know that I am being stupid for getting so worked up about something so small when there are people in the world that are suffering from things like cancer and other life threatening problems and I'm sitting here complaining about head aches and jaw popping.

I keep wondering if God is trying to teach me some kind of lesson through this or something...if so I wanna hurry up and learn it cuz this freaking sucks!!! On top of that I have continued with my track record of failing to do anything right, ever....I know I need to be praising God through this even though I don't feel like it but it's so hard to keep from letting everything get me down and depressed, cuz one thing will go bad and then all I can think about is all the things in my life that suck and drive me insane...
my crazy annoyingly hypocritical parents
my stupid ticket and everything I hafta do for that
my stupid speeding problem that not only gets me screwed but everyone else in the world too
my ghetto rental car that doesn't have cruise control
my jaw that will hurt and pop for the rest of my life (my husband is going to have to really really love me to deal with all the popping my jaw does and not be totally annoyed as well as turned off)
and then of course there is the ever present question of what am I going to do after highschool....

I am so sick of life and all its stupid little problems! I'm sick of not being able to do anything right!

I need you Jesus to come to my rescue
Where else can I go?
There's no other name by which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow you.